Category Archives: reflection

It’s just a tiny thing

White. Round. Respect for chemistry and what it does. Man. This tiny pill is some cortisone anti inflammatory juggernaut that killed the pain and allowed me to walk. It also makes the rest of me feel numb. It’s weird. I

It’s just a tiny thing

White. Round. Respect for chemistry and what it does. Man. This tiny pill is some cortisone anti inflammatory juggernaut that killed the pain and allowed me to walk. It also makes the rest of me feel numb. It’s weird. I

First again

I’m manually entering in all my old posts and comments. It’s not so bad to read what was. Makes me appreciate words. Not just mine, but the words of all those who visited. The first blog post, entitled “So This

First again

I’m manually entering in all my old posts and comments. It’s not so bad to read what was. Makes me appreciate words. Not just mine, but the words of all those who visited. The first blog post, entitled “So This

where it’s at

Saw the neurologist. Staying the course. He has no idea why I am retaining water and my boobs might go up a size or two in a day. (I swear it’s like I am nursing). But I am also having

where it’s at

Saw the neurologist. Staying the course. He has no idea why I am retaining water and my boobs might go up a size or two in a day. (I swear it’s like I am nursing). But I am also having

a return to

What exactly is normal? I forget. I’ve always forgotten, but this is a different kind. Every two hours or so, I hit a wall of tired and zone out. If I make it through, it hits again. Each time is

a return to

What exactly is normal? I forget. I’ve always forgotten, but this is a different kind. Every two hours or so, I hit a wall of tired and zone out. If I make it through, it hits again. Each time is

notes because it ain’t over

Blood pressure ranges from 95-145 systolic throughout the day. I hit 200 once. It was scary to have all the displays in a bright red. I took the pressure three times, still red. left it alone for a half hour,

notes because it ain’t over

Blood pressure ranges from 95-145 systolic throughout the day. I hit 200 once. It was scary to have all the displays in a bright red. I took the pressure three times, still red. left it alone for a half hour,

not going gently

Weak. The picture of an Amazon self does not match the woman in the mirror. I am mortal and aging. This does not imply a surrender to gravity nor a rounding of all the edges. Maybe the goal is to

not going gently

Weak. The picture of an Amazon self does not match the woman in the mirror. I am mortal and aging. This does not imply a surrender to gravity nor a rounding of all the edges. Maybe the goal is to

Mind the Gap

Never liked that disconnected feeling of too much alcohol. Maybe being one who favors the right brain anyway, the now, the interconnectedness of it all – having a little less of my already back seat driving left brain isn’t such

Mind the Gap

Never liked that disconnected feeling of too much alcohol. Maybe being one who favors the right brain anyway, the now, the interconnectedness of it all – having a little less of my already back seat driving left brain isn’t such

So, you know that thing with the sleeping pills?

There is a long list of possible side effects with the sleeping pill/generic ambien thing. Things are listed such as sex, baking, driving, walking, and other verbs…all while asleep. Apparently, I post on facebook and am capable of editing documents.

So, you know that thing with the sleeping pills?

There is a long list of possible side effects with the sleeping pill/generic ambien thing. Things are listed such as sex, baking, driving, walking, and other verbs…all while asleep. Apparently, I post on facebook and am capable of editing documents.

I Want to be Sedated

Twenty four twenty four hours ago… 20 minutes to make it under the wire for a daily post. The nurse explained that the sedation wouldn’t necessarily knock me out, but I wouldn’t remember anything. I’m pretty sure I was knocked

I Want to be Sedated

Twenty four twenty four hours ago… 20 minutes to make it under the wire for a daily post. The nurse explained that the sedation wouldn’t necessarily knock me out, but I wouldn’t remember anything. I’m pretty sure I was knocked

a melbrookish day

Saw the neurologist this morning. Hold out your hands. I said, “This is fine, but I shoot with this hand.” (I really did.) I also did the follow the finger, stand, sit, close eyes, heel-toe dance. Kept thinking of Young

a melbrookish day

Saw the neurologist this morning. Hold out your hands. I said, “This is fine, but I shoot with this hand.” (I really did.) I also did the follow the finger, stand, sit, close eyes, heel-toe dance. Kept thinking of Young