Posts Tagged: musing

about time

Put the cane down. That isn’t a metaphor. I just put it down. Thought experiment…what if this really is the new normal? This constant low grade pain with occasional flares of what-the-fuck? Add this to the year of lessons in mortality. Little

about time

Put the cane down. That isn’t a metaphor. I just put it down. Thought experiment…what if this really is the new normal? This constant low grade pain with occasional flares of what-the-fuck? Add this to the year of lessons in mortality. Little

Check

It’s a cane day. Even before I open my eyes, I know. Human barometer. Looking for patterns: dry days? wet ones? warm? cool? cold? changes to any or all? Afraid to admit it, but maybe I am finally aging. Which

Check

It’s a cane day. Even before I open my eyes, I know. Human barometer. Looking for patterns: dry days? wet ones? warm? cool? cold? changes to any or all? Afraid to admit it, but maybe I am finally aging. Which

am not was

It’s hard to see any movement made. One would hope whatever movement there was went  in some positive direction (whatever that means).   Someone asked what it was like to be a military brat? My answer is that the lesson

am not was

It’s hard to see any movement made. One would hope whatever movement there was went  in some positive direction (whatever that means).   Someone asked what it was like to be a military brat? My answer is that the lesson

Keeping a lid on it

Violent dreams. But it was me wielding the knife, the gun, the implement of destruction… A crazy Mickey Mouse roll call of bad choices. I make you dead to me. Wake up with residual ill feeling. It’s fuzzy and not

Keeping a lid on it

Violent dreams. But it was me wielding the knife, the gun, the implement of destruction… A crazy Mickey Mouse roll call of bad choices. I make you dead to me. Wake up with residual ill feeling. It’s fuzzy and not

Broken

I asked the doctor if the medication may be causing me to be sad and weepy. He said “no”. So it’s  just me feeling the way I do in response to the what it is. I am unwilling to accept

Broken

I asked the doctor if the medication may be causing me to be sad and weepy. He said “no”. So it’s  just me feeling the way I do in response to the what it is. I am unwilling to accept

oh hell no

Last Friday I went to the gym. It’d been a forever. Got on the scale and read one hundred forty-frickin’ two. Unacceptable. Poor Cody. I went to the pool to meet him. He was dawdling by the edge screwing up

oh hell no

Last Friday I went to the gym. It’d been a forever. Got on the scale and read one hundred forty-frickin’ two. Unacceptable. Poor Cody. I went to the pool to meet him. He was dawdling by the edge screwing up

The way it goes

Etching is a destructive process. You take the metal plate and protect it. Then you scratch it, scuff it, make it vulnerable. You drop it in acid and the exposed parts get eaten away. The plate is cleaned. Whatever protection

The way it goes

Etching is a destructive process. You take the metal plate and protect it. Then you scratch it, scuff it, make it vulnerable. You drop it in acid and the exposed parts get eaten away. The plate is cleaned. Whatever protection

time after time

Video capture of iPhoto’s Faces It’s interesting to see the whole in a line. There are ups and downs. I know what was happening in the interstices. I can see the happy and the thick and the thin(ner). The smile

time after time

Video capture of iPhoto’s Faces It’s interesting to see the whole in a line. There are ups and downs. I know what was happening in the interstices. I can see the happy and the thick and the thin(ner). The smile

Moments of Purpose

In some ways it’s like back to being in my twenties. I don’t think those in their twenties realize how very young that truly is. Back when I thought I could change the world, back when each step mattered, that

Moments of Purpose

In some ways it’s like back to being in my twenties. I don’t think those in their twenties realize how very young that truly is. Back when I thought I could change the world, back when each step mattered, that

where to strike?

Still wondering about those matches.

where to strike?

Still wondering about those matches.