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Connecting dots
It’s a perfect evening. I think what we do is skip from moment to moment while the interludes elude us
Oof
Inexplicably I feel like crying. It happens sometimes. There’s the regular checklist: mi in pain? Am I hungry? Am I just too freaking tired? I am happy to understand that this is not normal and I probably should figure out something to do about it.
Go.
The last time capital o Orange was elected. Everyone was anxious and panicked, well the people who didn’t want him in. I got to the office trying to keep my head above water. It seemed like if I gave to the general hopelessness, wouldn’t the opposition win? It is the power of influencers to shape public opinion, to create zeitgeist. I am being manipulated. That should not be the case. …
So wrong
I will admit this is super weird. I walk by the construction site and no one cat calls. Back in the day I would say the early ’90s and on for the next two decades, it was super weird when random guys would say things under their breath or hiss or whistle. Now older me is wondering have I lost it? Or maybe this is a sign that times have …
Tiny Goals
First: roll out of bed. I contemplate just putting my feet on the floor and wondering if they will support my body weight. One cannot take these things for granted. Really. I am actually in my bed right now having done part one and haven’t got to the part where my feet actually touch the ground. But if I can get past this, there is coffee. Maybe some toast and …
Not forgotten
It is all souls day. Dia de la muerta. It is not a sad thing to think about people who have touched your life in ways big and small. I remember Joy Duskin who accepted and celebrated everyone she knew all the time. I remember. Martin Hiraga who was quirky and seemingly small until he got in front of a bunch of people and talked about social injustice and how …
So Very Slowly
Driving into work, I feel like crying. I wonder why and then there is this, duh. It’s been a low-grade pain going on for probably days. That is the thing about normal. It is whatever you are experiencing pretty much on the regular. The trick is to recognize that a thing should not be normal. That at some point one must do something in order to stop this very slow …
Coffee moment
It is still before everyone else wakes up in the morning. It is then with a cup of coffee, a cat, and just the beginnings of light that I can just breathe and get my head ready for the day.
GDC is a LARP
Like dieting, the commitment to write daily vs I will write more is like the difference between I’m going vegetarian vs I am reducing how often I eat meat. Just the idea of wiggle room gives me an out. So, not writing every day – just happy that I am. GDC conference as a LARP: So we got all these different characters wandering around with their own motivations and objectives, …
Strike that balance
I admit to getting overwhelmed at Wegmans Supermarket. So this conference, the people, the sensory overload is definitely a thing. Eustress is opposite distress…like you’re stressed out but it’s positive, like the myriad alums who I am glad to see have landed; who are now my peers and friends; like going to sessions and getting knowledge bombs thrown at me as friendly fire. So I am beginning my day at …