outside the center

I’m sleeping with mom. She went to bed before me and I left her there. I check to make sure she is still breathing. I’m doing that thing.  We all are doing it. I think this may be the longest time she’s been able to sleep in days. I left her there. Get some rest. I smell coffee and hear the sneeze. Great! Dad’s making the coffee. I hear the shuffling in …

Family

Watching sympathy and celebration unfold in pictures and stories, in nods of acknowledgement and words of support. It’s mostly love. All of it really. Cousins I don’t know. Nephews and nieces. Far flung family. All all all our friends that my parents have welcomed into our home. Family.

No Mr. Darcy

– Pride and Prejudice by sprspr on DeviantArt The not-getting not quite unrequited is a sweet state. Jane Austen. Because it works out in the end despite all the tiny drama and miscommunications. Sucker for that stuff. I have someone now. Part of me still fights it — this different than the arrogant, distant, oh-so-ready to leave and I’m-not-really-here type that have been my script. Mr. Darcy was only icy …

when cracks open wide

“What is this?” “I swear, I haven’t used. Not since you caught me months ago that second time.” And I looked into his face. And I could see the boy who was mine and isn’t now. All that innocence that used to be. “You lied to my face. I want to believe you. And you might be telling the truth, but I don’t trust you and that bums me out.” …

right here right now

Been missing that daily thing. A year from now I may wonder what was happening in the interstices. Chris and Erin got married. That was a big deal. At work there are a tremendous amount of things going on, of which I am mostly uncaring. There is sleep and frustration about tangible things that are happening and not happening with my body…but all of it pretty much on time for …

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