Words: Pained, dull, fronting. (slang for putting up a front).
There is a definite relationship between disposition and mobility. Holding onto the walls, cruising like a toddler learning to walk. Regressing or fast forward? Maybe this is what it means when one says “It’s all downhill from here.” There was a peak, and this is that slope past it.
Riding a bike down a mountain, letting gravity do its thing, time whips by. This slope is steep. Time whips by sans the exhilaration. “F” if for front. “F” is for face. Take a pill. Ease the crash.