Growed up
This also happened. Sixteen is a lot. I can still conjure his face as he would crawl over the blankets to wake me up. The smile is still the same.
Category: about love
was not is
A year ago, I believed this. I don’t believe all of it now. Some walls come down. Hope does return.
village people
It takes a village
The village cares for me. They also care a great deal for my boys. They took off for Philly. I spent the day in the room watching Avatar – the Last Airbender, napping and when Matt came back got a chance to see Andy and Kim for a bit. My story of yesterday not so interesting. Kim got to be the sole representation of any estrogen on their trip into …
Landed
Vague memories of cross country trips in hotels with kitchenettes, of sitting in the back piled on one another, of some little sibling sleeping heavily on my shoulder. Mom had a baby on her lap in the front. Three cars, a boy in each. I have no doubt Aidan was getting edified by Matt, Badger and Ed. He says he was coping. I swapped cars with Mark after the stromboli. …
The inner circle
Lucky enough to have all my regulars in my regular place. These are the people I call when I have made too much food, when I have found something stupid on the internet, when I just want to sigh and get some sympathy. These are the ones who cost no mana. These are the ones with whom I do absolutely nothing in total silence and it’s okay. Funny when all …
touching the walls
The world did not stop without my presence. I find that reassuring. The noise level is low. Tonight is my first night alone since the incident. Well, I had one night between mom and Elaine’s visits. That was a blur. It’s comforting. She drove me to all my classes and even sat in on them attempting to do her own work. In-between we ate decadently…that part of me was …
outside vs inside
Hate when you’re sick but you don’t look it. Just tired. Hate the word “just”. Mondays are a bit rough. The teaching until 10pm followed by the 8am class is also a bit of a stretch. Energy level was low. Still is. I can do this. Elaine, “Go to bed. I’ll take care of this.” No argument. Even though I passed the driving hurdle, glad she is here. She drove. …
seester
Elaine is here. She is what I need. I don’t really need anything physically beyond rest. What Elaine brings is a light loving life affirming wise assery layer.
cheese
At this point I’m as normal as I was, except for the need for naps every two to three hours. So this morning Liz picked me up to head to the public market with our dear friend, Sylvie (who happens to be our fabulous WoW guild mistress extraordinaire). I hadn’t met Sylvie in meat space until this past Thursday when a bunch of us went to dinner. That dinner included …